PTK Studio Shoot - Finished video and over all experience

I apologise now for how badly written this post is, because i went on a massive rant so wasnt focused on if it made sense or not so it not very easy to read  

So here is the finished video, its not as bad as it thought it was going to be but it was no way nearly as good as it could have been. 

I feel because some of the stuff was added in on set or last minute we ended up not getting enough footage of the right things  and generally not enough fottage at all which meant the edit was a nightmare as there was so many errors that were hard to find solutions for. 

I think the prison bit is ok, other than it didnt edit well together but i think the ending is weak. Like its not what i thought it would be at all when we first planned it, i think it looks so bland and dosent give of the impact we wanted to, i dont think it makes and scense to why hes crawled out the room and what hes looking at, over all it just feel very not well thought out and rubbish.  I might just have that opinion though because  i had such a crap time making this film. 

I dont even know where to start when writing this evolution because there are so many things i wanna say but i dont know how to say them. 

I feel we had a hard time from day one trying to come up with idea then when we did we couldnt work out the ending, i wish i was just like right we are doing it this way and we are going to perfect it and make this way happen, rather than trying to keep everyone happy by going back and forth no between no im not doing this or no we cant do that what if we do this blah blah aso i feel this would have made the whole things some much clearer and had a better outcome. 

I wish a lot of the people in our group wasnt so indecisive,  like i get people are trying to be polite and nice to each other, but saying yeah that fine or im not bothered  IS REALLY FUSTRATING. This was especially hard when picking out job roles as alot of people were happy 'doing what ever'  but then left me to give people roles randomly with no idea what they liked or what they were good at  so then people eneded up doing roles they didnt like or things they were best suited for  and because alot of the time people didnt research into there rolls meant things werent getting done very well which then fell back onto me to try and fix, and becuase i didnt want to let the project fail i ended up fixing them taking on more work that i should have.  For example with the production design as most people at this point had said they where happy doing what ever so i gave this task to leanna how ever i now dont think leanna was best suited to this role as when she sent me  here work for set deign this is what he sent me

 

I dont know if its becuase i really like production design or becuase leanna wasnt sure what a production designer was ment to do but this wasnt really up to the standard i should have been. So becuase it was the day before the production back was due in when i received this i had to work through with her what a production designer dose to get the kind of thing i was looking for, once the pack was handed in i gave the task to chloe to work on during set build as  i remember her being quite arty so i knew she would be able to make something that was like what was needed for the film.   I dont want to pick on leanna this was jsut the first example in my head that showed what i wanted to say.  I know switching roles around can be quite confusing for people but i felt this was the only way things were going to get done.  

I also had to switch roles around with diallo and hannah  as hannh didnt show up to any of the meetings or lessons so we didnt really have any one on sound  so i added in diallo on sound, hannah said she would be around to edit sound but wasnt so kat had to be added in last minitue

I dont like switching things around, it makes everything more complicated but when things are getting done i had no other option but to do that or do it myself. 

I wish we had an editor who was on set or involved in the pre production stages because this was a really negative experience which effect the final video and they way it was edited, it shouldnt have, but when youve had a shit few months making the film it was hard in the edit to not be like this is crap i hate it. An editor not invoved int he process would have a much clearer view and just want to get the job done to the best they can. 

I wish both group A and B  had the same set this would have made devision of time and space alot more easier, so rather than we be pushed to the side or to find other rooms to work in and then have to rush most of the work the day before filming we could have split the time up equally. If it was up to me this is how i would have split the time. 

both a+ b take 2 days to put up the set and decorate it then group a have 3 days to do lighting and plans  etc then group be get the room for 3 days to do it. 

this would have also given us more free time to go fix things and do work for other projects instead  but because we couldn't put our set up untill the day before filming it made everything more stressfull having to find different spaces to test lighting in or having to work out what we can do in set build days rather than waste them.  I just feel like the 2 set build weeks werent used to the full advantage as we had to tip toe around the other group and argueed between our group . Just, i dont know i cant even think of how to write it up becuase the whole thing was just a night mare.  There was one day wher me charlie and kat walked into the studio and we just sat in silence and didnt talk or move for like 20 miniutes becuase the whole thing had jsut made us feel so shit, in the end we ened up jsut sending everyone home because we couldnt deal with it. 

I wish comunication was better from some people,  i was constantly messaging or emailing or trying to get people to do things how ever from a few people i didnt get this back and had to wait for a long time for a reply which is jsut a pain when you have stuff to be getting on with. It was really annoying that when i asked for things to be done for a monday i got them 4 days letter putting the whole project back. I knew that some people werent reliable so i asked for them earlier than need this way when they were late it would actually be on time but even then they were still late,  like i dont get it  how is it so hard to hand something in on time when you know a group of people are waiting on you. 

I wish i didnt care so much about it, that sound like a really weird thing to say  but i wasnt willing to let this project fail no matter what it took and in the end i  let a lot of my other projects slide  to try and get things done, i spent alot of time panicing and getting worked up about it that  in the second term i was jsut so fed up that any project that was left over from the term before just made me hate it becuase it was associated with this one. Like i could have done so much better on avid and maps and journeys but because they were on at the same time as studio shoot i hated them too. Part of me wishes i would have been like you know what  ive done all the work i need to do you do your bit and if you mess up that sucks to be you  but at the same time i would have felt like i would have done a shit job as a producer/ director if i had let it fail. I dont know im so confused by the whole thing. 

I wish we had a clearer understanding of what the project was from the start as we didnt really understand what studio shoot was about so we tried to make it a bigger thing than it actually was. 

I dont understand what went so wrong on this project like alot of  the time i blamed myself, if i had produced it better or changed something in pre production it would have made things so much simpler,  but i dont know what else i could have done.  I did all the pre production work to a good standard, i was allways clear with what was going on and scedualling etc , i was allways in comunication or talking to someone about the project, i made sure everyone was ok knew what they were doing, I tried to keep everything up beat despite how shit i felt about it all, like what else could i have done as a producer to make this happen. I did everything and more which is why i feel so let down and disappointed by this project because i but 300 % of my life even made my self ill trying to get everything done  but it just wasnt happening. Maybe i should have just been the bossy bitch that everyone hated  who was like this isnt a group project its my idea where doing it this way and no other way , but thats no who i am i dont want to have to bossy  and nag people to get things done people should have wanted to work equally, collaborating and working professionally with each other  not jsut doing things to the lowest standard because someone told them to do it. 

I dont know, im a combination of pissed off and up set with this whole experience and myself for letting it impact me so much that its made my  view on university quite negative. 

This isn't really an evaluation any more its more of just me ranting about they way i wish things had gone so imma start thinking of some positives . 

I feel that this project has helped me step up my game a little bit more, like i felt in 1st year my work was a bit lazy and rubbish  so if i took all the determination and hard work i put into this project into a different one with different circumstances  i will be creating much better work than i did in first year. 

I already separated friends and work as we are such a small class nothing would get done if we was 100% BFFs all the time but i think this task made me realise more that you can be quite assertive to people on a professional level and it not effect your friendship.

I think my attempted at trying to keep the project professional despite the lack of imput from other members making it become less professional has shown me that i can  work in a professional way. 

I think i need to stop letting the negative things take a toll on the over all thing and work on that. 

i think it made me realise what parts of film i like doing as well, as much as i complain about having to produce things i know i have the skill and am able to do that well,  it reminded me that i like doing make up and like set design and like the arty kind of things , it made me think that im not very good at technical things or after effects so many i should stop trying to make things so complicated technically hoping it will give me some kind of skill i just cant do and start strengthing the things i am good at instead to become the very best at them. 

Ive learnt to trust my instinct alot more a fix problems at the start before they get to big.

ive learnt i can be a very motivated and determined.

I feel that i have been very negative about the group and i think 80% of people did try and put some effort in  and some people found it harder than others as they were doing something they had not done before  and thats great, how ever it was just no way near the standard of what a group of 20 ish  year old 2nd year university students should have been working at.  I think when things were working well becuase we are all friends and get along it was fun but the 75% of the time it wasn't it was stressfull as hell. 

I dunno i just feel the process wasnt taken very seriously by some people and i think it shows in the final video, like it looks like something i made in college when i was 16 and i feel like we could have done better.

  

Over all i think this project has been a pain in the arse and im so glad its over and i never have to look or think about it ever again.   I feel like i have learnt something from this project, weither its what the project was ment to teach us or not, and quite frankly i want a holiday from this year where i dont have to thinking about the whole proccess of this bloody project ever again.